Did you read as :
"I'm no where for you" or "I'm now here for you"
Remember! Everything in life, the way you see things are depend on how you look at them.
Don't always thinks negatively, be positive.
Like us as a muslim 'semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya'.
Allah would not test us with the test that we cannot encounter.
He gives those test because He knew that we can encounter it with calm, patient and never give up.
One day, those pain will make sense to you....